the calm, there could be no art in my life. Without the hype, there
could be no madness. It is vital to have both. Art is madness--a game
we create to feign meaning or reason. It is the ultimate insanity.
To know, and to know that you know. It makes one laugh all the time
at all things--becoming serious only if we need them to be serious
things. A crisis is only such if we need it to happen. Joy and happiness
should be the natural way, but just the opposite happens. There seems
to be no reason or purpose to life without a struggle. I have never
understood this, and now I understand it less.